Drowning in Time

EDIT 2: QAQ WAHT WHAT WAAAAAHT. Second DD are you serious how is this even- HOW DO I WORDS-
Thank you so much ~Sunshine-USA for suggesting and ^sTiViA for the feature!

EDIT: xD Forgot to mention that this was also made for early birthday of Rem, who's Birthday is March 7th!
Happy Birthday Rem! >u<

<sub>;//w//; Yaaay I finally feel like i'm getting back in the swing of things! >w< I'm so super happy!

My OC, Rem. He is a boy.

TvT Soo, some of you might remember this sketch from here: [link]
Its an idea i've had in my head for sooooo long, but unfortunately when I finally got up the courage to work on it I got into a bad rut and so it had been sitting on my desk for so long along with now like, 40+ other unfinished pictures OTL
But then a few days ago I looked at this sketch and got kind of sad...thinking about this character always makes me so sad ;__; Whenever I think about him I just feel so many emotions, and emotions I can very closely relate to unlike most of my OCs. But somehow looking at this sketch and how sad it made me feel made me really want to finish it. And then weirdly enough I started to feel really happy! ;//u//; I guess its like one of those "facing your demons" things.

//OC blah if you care:

So I know i've explained Rem's character quite a bit before and how he cannot sleep. It isn't that he physically can't, but he just must force himself to stay awake for a very important reason. For Rem, time is never-ending. Days, hours, minutes- the only thing they mean to him is pain. Though it sounds terrible to say, with the amount of pain Rem feels every minute of every day he would rather not live at all. He forces himself to push through that pain for an important reason, but still all he wants is the pain to stop. For time to finally stop. Many people fear death and fear their own time running out, but for Rem it is the opposite. The hourglass never empties but endlessly flows. He forever feels the weight of time like we feel suffocation and drowning.

//end OC blah

;__; So yeah. Its so sad. I can just relate so much to Rem, but in a completely opposite way. Its strange and hard to explain, but I just felt very emotionally connected to this drawing.

TvT Anyways...
xD I was actually going to color this quite differently originally. It was going to be lighter with a white background. But the more I thought about it, it made much more sense to give it a darker look because of the dark nature of his suffering. But I wanted the scene to be very Rem-like and surreal, caught in his mind's web of hallucination and stolen dreams. xD Hence the "babyish" look to a lot of things. I don't really know how to explain it but...err...well I had the idea to draw him in an hourglass, and then I took that "real" situation and wanted to draw it from Rem's perspective, of how his mind would interpret that. If that makes sense. Asdfgh- how do I words

;//u//; Anyways....I like this a lot. I don't usually like my own art very much, but I like this a lot. T//w//T And Rem is my favorite OC and I all the feels and-

Okay i'll just stop now. I probably sound really dumb OTL

^v^ You can watch me color this on my YouTube channel here: [link]

>u< ILU GUYS

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Rem belongs to me and is part of my original story, "Sleight"
Media: Winsor & Newton + Dr. PH Martins Hydrus watercolor, Prismacolor colored pencils, white acrylic paint
Time taken: About 25 hours
Date: March 2nd, 2013
Character, art, concepts, etc belong to me, *BlueRoseArkelle and you do not have permission to use, alter, repost or reproduce in any way without my permission.
(eve fanart is always welcome however)</sub>