My Personal Team
Brink ??? (Shiny) Salem ??? Meeko ♂
Arpeggio ♂ Paisley ♂ Blellum ♀
Leizel ♂ Chai ♀
Santiago ♂ Cruxis ♂ Narcissus ♂
Miiko ♂ Adagio ♂ Anteros ♂
Mallow ♀ Adonis ♂ Amore' ♂
Daiquiri ♂ Grigory ♂ Fiore' ♂
Faustus ♂ Etzel ♂ Mishka ♂
Lavender ♂ Euclid ??? Hyacinth ♂
CHARTREUSE IS THE BEST COLOR TO EVER EXIST EVER.
CARDBOARD UNICORNS ARE THE OBJECT OF MY AFFECTION.
ASIAN BALL-JOINTED-DOLLS TAKE 98.75% OF MY MONEY.
16-BIT RPG MUSIC MAKES MY KNEES WEAK AND BREATH HEAVY.
POKEMON. POKEMON. POKEMON.
ALL YOUR SHOTAS AND LOLIS ARE BELONG TO ME.
I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THIS IS IN BOLD.
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>w< Oh hey! My name is Arkelle.
Thank you so much for visiting my page!
However, as my art isn't really for everyone, I would just like to explain some questions you may have or things that may concern some people beforehand.
- I enjoy using highly saturated or pastel colors and high contrast. I'm aware some people may consider it "retina burning" and unrealistic, and that is often times what i'm aiming for.
- My art style is in the realm of anime, and I like it that way. If I wanted to draw everything realistic I would draw realism and not anime.
- Generally speaking, I prefer to draw humans rather androgynous. This seems to upset a lot of people. If you are one of those people then kindly read the bolded segment at the bottom of this page.
- I like to draw things of obscure, obscene, or socially atypical subject matter to broaden my own and hopefully other people's perspectives.
- Please understand that my art used to tell a story, often from a specific person's point of view. What I write or draw in the context of fiction is not meant to reflect me or my personal opinions.
- I prefer to tell stories in a blunt, unguarded, highly emotional, and often a very graphic way, so my art may be a bit intense for you, which is understandable.
- I typically draw things pertaining to my own original stories and characters. I do not do fanart very often and I have no intention of changing that.
- I typically like to focus on characters whom (compared to modern day real life) would be a minority; those who may not look, act, think, or experience things in the same way as most people do currently in real life.
- I do not draw to be the best, to be the most popular, or the most original. I draw to learn, to experiment, to broaden my perspectives, to tell a story, to show beauty in things people might consider grotesque, and because art is the one thing in life I can honestly say I love.
If you do not like my art or the subject matter that it may pertain to, I completely understand. It isn't for everyone and I respect your opinion, but thank you very much for your time!
T///u///T And thank you to everyone who does honestly enjoy my art and stories and thank you so much for all the lovely kind words of praise and encouragement you all give to me.
I don't want to have to explain this anymore, so read this:
I love androgyny, and prefer to draw people that way. I like the idea of people being PEOPLE and not so severely separated by the roles or stereotypes in which we place upon gender. If you haven't noticed, I draw everyone "pretty" not just boys.
Saying that "boys aren't that pretty" is stupid when it comes to anime because if you haven't noticed, real girls do not look like anime girls either. Its not a realistic art style, and I think people have the right to interpret things in whatever way they want.
I personally prefer a more ambiguous interpretation of gender. To me, gender is just a thing. It doesn't define people exclusively, and honestly the way most people interpret it is just silly. Girls can be tough, boys can be weak. Girls can be "ugly" and boys can be "pretty". And if you think someone is less of a person (or that it somehow makes them not part of their own gender) for that then you are an idiot. If that offends you, leave. I'm not interested in hearing your stereotypical definitions of gender, and how men need to be buff and strong and women need to be in the kitchen. If that is what you think, again, you are an idiot.
;//A//; Oh man, first and foremost, I do deeply apologize that this was so delayed!!
My OC, Etzel. He is a young boy
I did intend to post this in April (which i'll get to in a minute) but for those of you who don't know my computer broke and was out getting fixed for almost three weeks. I'm so so sooooo happy that is was fixable and that it didn't die completely as well... I wouldn't even begin to know what to do if it was legitimately unusable. T~T Not to mention the computer itself, but just the vital art/video programs I have on it alone would be waaaay more than I could afford right now. So yeah, even though it caused an annoying delay with my art and plans, i'm still so so relieved that it could be fixed!
But anyways, even before my computer broke, I did actually make the decision to post the previous months series drawing in the next following month. The reason being is that its easier for me to develop a clearer idea for each month when i've already experienced it and can reflect on it, you know? I mean, I already have the specific characters I want to draw in each month picked out and a vague theme or concept but it really helps to refine and solidify those base ideas when I can reflect on the month that they are intended for as it actually happens. TwT Hopefully that makes sense. So anyways, April's monthly series drawing will be posted this month as well, this one just got delayed which is why i'm posting it now. April's is mostly done I just need to finish the coloring for it, so i'm thinking the middle of the month like the 15th-ish it will be ready. And then May's will be posted in June and so on and so forth. That will be plan for all of the upcoming months aside from December which I do intend to post in in the same month. xD Just because I don't want to post it in January of 2016, you know? Haha~
;__; So yeah, I'm so sorry again for the delay, but thank you guys for being so patient and understanding and i'm truly deeply sorry for seeming so flaky all the time. I really don't try to be that way, honest. OTL
Annnnyyyywaaaaaay, xD I feel like I have a laaaaaaat to say about this drawing's story/symbolism blah in particular BECAUSE I SERIOUSLY NEVER TALK ABOUT ETZEL EVER I MEAN REALLY *cough* so i'll save most of the rambling for that, but I did want to mention that goshhhhh it took me forever to really pinpoint exactly what I wanted color wise for this particular drawing. Though it surprises a lot of people to hear it, I usually only have a mental concept of the coloring that I do in my drawings prior to actually coloring them. I rarely ever if ever physically "plan" out exactly how i'm going to color. A lot of traditional artist seem to take the route of either making tiny thumbnail sketches of their drawings and do some quick test colors on those, or scan their lineart/sketches into the computer and make quick digital mockups. Previously I really never did either. I mean, I of course would test out blending a few colors I wanted to use on a scrap piece of paper to see how they would look, but aside from that I pretty much just..well yolo it xD //shot
But for this particular drawing I was just too conflicted on exactly the route that I wanted to take in regards to coloring so I opted to do the digital mock-up method to test out some ideas and make a more solid plan before I started coloring it traditionally. Part of me wanted to color it really bright and saturated like I usually do, opting for brighter oranges and yellows and the sky/hair transition being a bright blue rather than a deep teal. I also thought about adding more colors, like the bright neon pink of Etzel's irises for example. But in thinking about it further my real vision for it was more of a...softer, highly selective color palette, with a strangely ethereal yet primarily earthy sort of vibe, if that makes sense. xD I don't know how quite to explain it, since these sort of earthy and less extremely saturated color schemes are something I rarely do. I mean, even though I wanted the yellow to appear as bright highlights, it is still entirely fair to say that compared to the ultra extreme contrast that I usually do, this is rather subdued by comparison. Which is what I was going for. Its hard to explain the exact feeling I wanted to capture....but...I guess its kind of like simultaneously blending everything in the picture together to create a an overall feeling of unison while also having a very distinct and compelling center focus. xD Haha, yeah that still sounds silly. Hopefully you get what I mean though. ^u^ I am very surprised that I am really quite fond of this drawing though. Rarely ever would I say that I genuinely "love" or even "really like" my drawings when I finish them. But this one I do very much like...and I hope you guys do too! <3
T//u//T Anyways, so yeah, standard transition time! For those of you who may not know, i'm doing a monthly drawing series of my OCs with flower themes. If you want to know the symbolism and story behind this drawing then feel free to read on, but if not that is fine but before you go, thank you so much for your favorite, comments and just for looking! I really really appreciate it!~ <3
A WILD TEXTWALL APPEARED!
//Start EXTREMELY convoluted story/symbolism blah
So for the month of March I chose Etzel to be the focus. I always knew that I wanted him for either March or April, but after settling on Calliope for February I decided on March for Etzel so their little love trio could be all together in a row xD //shot
But anyway, the reason why I wanted Etzel to be one of these two months originally is because I often associate dramatic weather change with them. Bright sun and heavy rain; March and April can definitely be rather bizarre, spontaneous and unpredictable months...at least in the US of course haha xD. But really, March was the better choice for Etzel because I when I think of the two months together, March I see as being the one with more sun and April with more rain. Both have this dramatic weather change but the well known saying "April showers bring May flowers" makes me associate rain more strongly with April than that of March. Etzel is definitely a character whom if I had to choose one over the other I would say he is definitely more "sunny" than "rainy", but that is not to say that other side of him does not exist. Etzel is very much a person who upon first impression you could very easily assume to be nothing but a fun-loving little ball of happiness, rainbows, and sunshine. Super bubbly, innocent, lighthearted and overly affectionate (albeit on the..err.. overly forward side of that one xD), perhaps a bit overzealous at times but rarely ever to a rude or annoying extent. However, this side of him was not always there. At a point in his life, Etzel made a decision to change himself and learned to purposefully project a happy and likable personality. Over time, it took over his previous attitude completely and became his natural way of existing to the point that most people would assume he has been that way his whole life. Only a select few people know the difficult struggle it was to change himself...to learn to focus on the positive side of life, to trust, and to love with all of his heart.
I think i've mentioned it briefly before, but it has been a while and its a bit hard to explain and probably to understand, but bare with me and i'll try to explain a bit better the circumstances that lead to that change as its what is primarily referenced in this drawing. Some of this is just reiterating, but is relevant backstory that is needed for everything else to make sense. Firstly its important to note that in regards to the order of their Trio meeting, Etzel and Calliope met first, then quite a while later Etzel met Shu and then not long after Shu was introduced to Calliope. There is quite a bit of time and backstory between Etzel and Calliope that pre-dates Shu; the nature of Etzel's personality change being one of them. Originally Etzel and Calliope were not natives of the same area, or not from the same "settlement" you could say. (I have my own terms that the Unitrios use for a lot of these things, but I just try to explain them as "normally" as I can so things make sense xD.) The Unitrios, Etzel and Calliope's species, don't all live in one area. Quite the opposite actually. They form small groups (usually no more than 9 complete Trios [27 individuals] and most typically half of that number incomplete Trios [13-14 individuals] with a very rare maximum of equal that number of incomplete Trios [27 individuals]) usually in areas that are considered uninhabitable by that of "humans" to protect themselves from being preyed upon by them. I explained why this is in my February monthly series drawing if you want to know more about that specifically. Anyway, even if they are well hidden from those who would seek to harm them they still do not naturally favor large communities as they are not an overly sociable species (among other things) like we IRL humans are, but that is also a story for a different day.
Anyway, In Unitrios lore there are stories telling of a infamously forbidden and absolutely exiled Unitrios settlement. While some see it as nothing more than a spooky tale of warning, others know all too well that this place did and still does exist. The reason it lives in infamy…there is a long held legend and rumor about the true nature of the Unitrios that live there. That they have been born to very different and forbidden types of energies. From the energies…of other living creatures. Their flesh, blood and bones …and other things. To reiterate, the way that Unitrios are born is by creating a synergy of three specific compatible energies and refining said power inside that of gemstones which are matured and then combined with the addition of the "parent's" chosen energy in a special process which creates their newborn. In normal circumstances they are born to a very specific type of natural energy in which they can both consume and exude so that there is a natural equilibrium with their environment. However, their bodies are essentially pure energy encased in a gemstone exterior. They don't feel like stone per-say, but they certainly do not have the same internal workings as humans and so they do not look or feel quite so "fleshy" either. While on the outside they don't look much different on the inside when they are alive they do not have blood, bones, muscles or anything that humans posses. Herein lies the reason why birthing Unitrios to such energies is widely considered forbidden. Unitrios do not naturally bleed nor do they posses bones, fur, etc. They can consume the energies lying within these things but cannot exude them. This defies the natural balance their species has held with their environments since the begin of their creation, and so it was ultimately forbidden to use any energy that could not be replenished in the furthering of their species even should it seem opportune.
Etzel...is from that very place.
But…his energy however is not exactly what you would think. Its not that of blood or bone...but well...something that everyone has deep inside but that can be very hard to see. He has an energy unlike that of any other…one that to make and perfect had a very heavy cost. That entire story i'll save for another day, but lets just say that the true nature of exactly what went into him being born he would not know for a very long time. Exactly what his energy even was and how it could be harnessed was also kept from him, in part because it was the first time it had ever been successful...but for other reasons as well. Even not knowing exactly what his energy was or how to use it, Etzel was miraculously still able to live normally and seemed to suffer next to no consequences...well, all except for one very obvious one which he would not learn until much later. For many years after his birth he was kept away from others of his species by two of his three “parents”. The whole reason I will not say now, but lets just say that it was not done with pure and good intention. He was like…an experiment. A metaphorical mouse on a wheel. However, even amongst the society of the "forbidden" Unitrios, it was still considered especially heinous and intolerable to create offspring to use for your own benefit which is at least in part why he was held away in secret. Again, without giving away too much, lets just say that these two had a very specific vision for that of Etzel which he himself wanted no part of. It’s a long story and I don’t want to get into all of it right now, but eventually he was finally able to escape. However, it was only then that he was made aware that he had a severe flaw…in the eyes of other people he could appear as anything. Its a little hard to explain but the physical form that he appeared as was different to every person that saw him. Sometimes a person could see him the same way for a while without it changing, or it could change with each blink of their eyes. To some people he looked like a child, others an adult, sometimes as people they knew, sometimes a blurry figure or sometimes not even of his own species. Though he didn't know it yet, typically the forms he took were most influenced by his own emotions. The more extreme and negative the emotions, the more extreme and terrifying other people saw him as. However, Etzel never saw himself differently. Up until that point he never knew about it at all. His "parents" were the only people he was around and they never had the reactions that these new people had to him. They saw him as he saw himself. When he ran away from his homeland, everyone he came across met him with similar faces of terror, confusion or disdain be them his own species or not. Looking at his reflection he always saw the same thing and he wondered why nobody else could see it. Everyone he met acted as if they saw a monster or if they didn't, the next time he saw them again they acted like they didn't know who he was...which was true in their eyes. Or even worse still, a human seeing him as his own rare and highly coveted species and trying to kill, enslave, or violate him. From these terrible experiences happening over and over again with each new person he met he grew angrier and angrier with them all until he had nothing but pure hate and distrust for everyone. On top of that he knew next to nothing about himself or the world around him as it was all kept away from him since he was born. He barely even knew what a Trio was and that says a lot considering it is the crux of his whole species. During his time alone on his own, he did find however that he had an unusual connection to that of spiders. They seemed to be the only creatures that were not startled by him and actually tended to flock to him. They have a high level of understanding to one another, somewhat like telepathy. They seemed to think he was one of them…which wasn’t isn’t exactly wrong xD
Amongst other things, they became his “friends” and gave him a great appreciation for that of nature at least… if not for the people living in it.
He spent quite a lot of time all by himself (well, mostly) until he met one of the members of his own Trio for the first time; Calliope. Unlike all the other people who he had come across on his journey, Calliope was not like the others. Even not fully understanding what a Trio was he knew instantly just as all Unitrios do when they’ve met them for the first time. But she was not like all the others in more ways than one. Up to that point she was the only other person (spiders not included) aside from his "parents" that could see him as he truly was all the time. It would be difficult, extremely long winded, and pretty spoilery to explain everything that happened that led up to it so I’ll save it for a different day, but long story short; through that one true connection, though it was not easy, over time it led Etzel to begin learning to trust people more and to not immediately hate them for things neither could at the time control. Calliope met his hate and distrust with compassion and patience and though it was not without strife she was able to show him that the person whom he was projecting was not the real him. She was the only one who he trusted and allowed to see that under all that projected hate and distance there was laughter, curiosity, innocence, passion, intelligence, mercy, love, and strong unbreakable devotion. She said that the way other people saw him was a product of his environment and circumstance and that if he wanted people to see him a certain way he had to become how he wanted to be seen. To show people what she can see. She noticed that the way he appeared to other people was highly influenced by that of his emotions and that when he was in control of them and in control of himself the image they would see became less intimidating and eventually much clearer. Though neither of them fully understood why at the time and it would not be truly know until much later, but once his personality had truly bloomed and became what it is today the foggy misguided images people saw of Etzel faded away and were finally able to see him for his true self; what Calliope had always seen. Eventually the Etzel people had known before was all but gone completely both in appearances and in personality and the always excitable, passionate and bubbly real Etzel was allowed to shine like the bright sun parting through dark rainclouds.
…xD Haha, anyways yeah, wow that’s a big wall o’ backstory if I’ve ever seen one….and that is the severely edited version mind you. There was a lot more elaboration and more story I wanted to say, buuuut I think this is more than good enough for now. I really have said so little about Etzel in the past, so at least this is a bit more about him for you.
So yes, that should explain what I was going for with the drawing and what I meant about sun and rain. Etzel is a person who…well, consistently throughout life is given the short end of the straw. There are so many pains and heartaches that he is forced to endure throughout his life (both in past, present and future tense….) and yet even through all of it he continues to smile. He learned to focus on the positive side of life, to hold on to what you love and what light you have because no matter how small it is it can always lead you through the darkness. To most people who meet him for the first time, they would never know the horrors that he’s had to face because his eyes are always so bright and innocent and carries such a happy disposition. He’s just like a Sunflower; no matter where they are or what is behind them they always will face the sun. I always think of Sunflowers when I think of Etzel, so I just had to make them the main focus. Sunflowers are also universal symbols of happiness, positivity, pure thoughts, loyalty, longevity, and faith; all things that describe Etzel quite well. The other flower in this drawing is Daisy whiiiiich I’ll admit that I mainly included also because it reminds me a lot of Etzel. xD I don’t know, these are just the two flowers that come to mind when I think of Etzel. Luckily they are very similar in meaning and both represent Etzel very well especially with the theme and coloring I was going for. xD To be honest….March is actually one of my last favorite moths of the year. Mainly because where I live, in the valleys of Southern California, there are really only two seasons; summer and sort of winter. Well, what I mean by that is that seasons aren’t as obviously visual here as many trees do not shed their leaves in in the Fall and it does not snow…ever. Really its just the temperature that changes a lot. There is a saying in California that explains it well; “if you don’t like the weather wait 15 minutes and it will change”. For some transitional months it ping-pongs between being skin-meltingly hot or the perfect temperature. March is when that back and forth game usually starts. It doesn’t get unbareably hot until around late May and early June but I always dread March because that is when I know the nice and cool, less wishy-washy months are behind me and every day after its just going to get hotter and nastier ( I loooooooathe the heat if that wasn’t obvious) OTL. So yeah, March is definitely not my favorite month of the year, but it isn’t my least favorite either. xD Probably like third least favorite haha~ ^u^But I’m glad that I could draw one of my favorite characters of mine for this month to counter that…and I’m glad that the drawing itself turned out better than I expected too! ;__; I’m just sorry it got so delayed. OTL
//End EXTREMELY convoluted story/symbolism blah
TwT Hehe, anyways so yeah okay I’m going to stop rambling now.
HOT DAAAAAAYM LOOK AT THAT SEXY ASS TEXTWALL HNNNNGG
But I do hope that you like the drawing and I hope for those of you who care its nice to know a little more about Etzel’s backstory finally haha~ ;A; There is honestly soooooooo much more I wish I could tell you guys about him more in future tense because he has some of my favorite but most heart wrenching arcs in the story but ack, spoilers. Eventually though!
*U* ILU GUYS <3
Etzel belongs to me.
Media: Prismacolor Premiere/Verithin colored pencils, 0.3 B mechanical pencil, 0.03 Copic Multiliner in Sepia, chalk pastels
Time taken form start to finish: About 20 hours
Date: May 10th, 2015
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